I've been feeling extremely stuck lately. I tend to play mind games with myself thinking "once the girls are in school things will get better" or "once the summer is over and I'm stuck inside and have to work things will get better" which eventually turns into "once the winter ends and I'm not stuck inside things will get better." It's a continual struggle, the antithesis of Zen. In the moment is not my specialty. And no matter how many self-help books I read or mental exercises I perform the present remains mostly elusive. I have instants of clarity, but when I'm unclear I forget that I ever felt creative or motivated. So for all of my "things will get better" thinking, frankly I have to say right now they're not improving. But yesterday it occurred to me that I have a copy of The Artist's Way lying around, so I went and pulled it off the shelf after not looking at it since we moved to New Jersey. I find it oddly embarrassing to admit to having used it once; I shouldn't knock it--it's a great book and highly beneficial for artistic types, and years ago it kicked me back into gear--but it's also pretty corny, and I always feel like I need to make excuses for cheesiness. Long story short, I'm hoping it will get me back into the swing of things, despite my admittance earlier that self-help is not always helpful.

This afternoon I sat down at the computer around 3:00 and thought "I have loads of time." The next thing I knew it was 5:30 and I'd gotten nothing much done. I picked up Cameron's book and saw this quote: "It is the attention to detail that stays with us: the singular image is what haunts us and becomes art. Even in the midst of pain, this singular image brings delight. The artist who tells you different is lying." And for the first time in a week or so I felt like writing a blog post. Maybe just the act of reading something, anything, about art was enough to motivate me, even if the moment will ultimately be fleeting.


Portfolio reviews at Hous Projects

Fall Portfolio Review-
Manhattan, New York City, Saturday,October 9, 2010 at 10:00am; Saturday, October 16, 2010 at 6:00pm
Location: hous projects
Gallery Address: 31 Howard Street , Second Floor,SoHo, New York NY, 212-965-1238 or 212 -965-1251
We cordially invite you to be part of the Fall Portfolio Review in Manhattan, NYC at the hous projects NYC gallery branch.You will have your portfolio review by 3 prominent figures in the Manhattan Art World. This is an exploratory portfolio review focused mostly on photography. The idea is to find new talent in the East Coast for a bi-coastal portraiture show opening simultaneously in NYC and Los Angeles January 2011. The show will be called EAST MEETS WEST.The fee for the portfolio review is $150.00 and will guarantee time with Michael, Elizabeth and Ruben. We will consider work shown for the portraiture show if applicable. This a great opportunity to have your work to be seen by three highly experienced NYC gallerists.

1. Michael Hoeh- Art Collector/ Curator/ Editor in Chief of Modern Art Obession Arts Blog and Co-Chairman of Aperture Foundation 2010 Fall Gala Benefit.
2. Ruben Natal-San Miguel-Curator /Art Collector /Photographer/ PhotolucidaCritical Mass judge and pre screener/ARTmostfierce Art Blog Editor in Chief (Ruben will also be part of En FOCO's next portfolio review on September 25th with a great lineup, see details here.)
3 Elizabeth Houston- hous projects gallery owner/Gallerist/ Art Collector/ Photolucida's Critical Mass Judge


9 years

I think this was the first morning in nine years that my immediate thoughts didn't turn to 9/11. It only took a few minutes to remember the anniversary, but every year feels further from the life I had then, and the shock of it all. Nevertheless, I did what I always do, which is to replay the day in my mind. It's almost ritualistic now: I think about the red pants and black shirt I was wearing, I think about my office, my boss telling us about the planes, I think about the phone calls and strangely and especially the bathroom where I privately broke down. I think about my colleague Meg, and how we walked home to Brooklyn, I think about my apartment which was under renovation, and lying on the mattress in our empty bedroom watching the news. I think about the restaurants, the friends we ate with, how it was all we could talk about, and the financial papers that drifted down onto our terrace.

Most of all today though I'm thinking about how so much in my life has changed--except for James as my one constant I live in a different place, I now have children and a dog and my closest friends are for the most part different people. Still, the weather is uncannily exactly the same. After I got out of bed I spied on the girls in the driveway from the bathroom window, Edie riding her bike in circles, June playing with her stuffed animal, James loading up the minivan for bulk refuse day. It almost hurt to look at them, but it made me happy too.


Indie Photobook Library

Another great resource to check out is the Indie Photobook Library. Put together by my talented friend and one-time college roommate Larissa Leclair--mentioned more than once here on Tethered--it's an amazing collection of all types of photography publications. From the website:

The Indie Photobook Library (iPL) was founded in 2010 by Larissa Leclair. It is an archive that strives to preserve and showcase self-published photobooks, photobooks independently published and distributed, photography exhibition catalogs, print-on-demand photobooks, artist books, zines, photobooks printed on newsprint, limited edition photobooks, and non-English language photography books to be seen in person through traveling exhibitions and as a non-circulating public library. Having a specific collection dedicated to these kinds of books allows for the development of future discourse on trends in self-publishing, the ability to reflect on and compare books in the collection, and for scholarly research to be conducted in years, decades, and centuries to come.

Upcoming places to see the Indie Photobook Library collection include the Flash Forward Festival (Toronto, October 6-10, 2010) and FotoWeek DC (Washington, DC, November 6-13, 2010).

Thank you as always to Larissa for her ongoing support of my work and for including me on the site. If you'd like to own a copy of Life is a series of small moments seen above (for only $12 I might add) please visit MagCloud here to purchase.


A month or so ago I received an email from Christopher Reid, co-founder of a new startup called snapsort. Christopher and a group of self-proclaimed software engineers and photography geeks got the idea for the site while trying to solve the age-old problem of which camera to purchase. As he says:

"I'm sure you've been asked a million times by friends, family and readers what camera they should buy. 150 new cameras every year from 15 manufacturers makes it pretty hard to know what the best one is to recommend in all scenarios. That was our problem also. We felt that most people have a really hard time figuring out exactly what camera is right for them. With 400-500 cameras for sale how's the average Joe to know, can't very well go read 400 reviews.

We thought: wouldn't it be cool if you could compare, review and understand every single digital camera in one place before looking for detailed reviews? Build your own custom round ups and comparisons based on what is important to you. For the last 10 months we've been building just that: compare, review and roundup every camera based on your unique criteria and help you understand the important differences."

While those of us who have been in the photography business for a while now might have an easier time knowing what we want, this is a great site for finding everything in one place and for people who have no idea where to begin. They've done some serious legwork, and it's very well organized. The "learn" section has a vast array of descriptions on the particulars of digital cameras, and which cameras are best for varying specificities; for those of us who have been out of school for a while now and may be rusty on our technical terms this is the place to brush up on all your techie-speak. Best of all, it relieves us photographers from having to give lengthy explanations on why a Canon is better than a Nikon or vice versa to friends or relatives who want a good camera but aren't necessarily professionals. Refer them along to snapsort and let the site do all the work.