I feel like I should be playing "The Circle Game" on a tiny violin--we're a month into 2011 and already it's kicking my lack-of-exercise/lack-of-proper-nutrition snow snow and more snow missing my dog and my husband had gallbladder surgery backside. When I feel stuck like this I'll often go back and read previous posts of mine to gauge whether I'm "better" or "worse" off than the year before (better/worse being relative terms); in some ways it's cyclical and in other ways it seems entirely random. 2011 is not being good to me. Creative-wise, the focal point outside of all of these life-crises, from month to month there are periods of frenetic creativity followed by malaise, often with a forgetfulness that I have done things or been in things, an example being that lately I feel like a lazy bum, which negates the fact that I worked harder on my Photo Editor post than I've worked on anything art-wise in recent memory. Do other photographers have this amnesia? Is it a perfectionist thing--that you can never do enough be enough produce enough? I'm constantly reminding myself and trying to convince myself that the down times are when the creative ideas are brewing--and I actually have quite a few truth be told--but it's the execution, the actual mustering up of momentum that I avoid and delay and worry about. Enough already, excuse me while I go fulfill the wintertime blues cliche of eating chocolate cake in front of the TV.