Wah waah

I feel like I should be playing "The Circle Game" on a tiny violin--we're a month into 2011 and already it's kicking my lack-of-exercise/lack-of-proper-nutrition snow snow and more snow missing my dog and my husband had gallbladder surgery backside. When I feel stuck like this I'll often go back and read previous posts of mine to gauge whether I'm "better" or "worse" off than the year before (better/worse being relative terms); in some ways it's cyclical and in other ways it seems entirely random. 2011 is not being good to me. Creative-wise, the focal point outside of all of these life-crises, from month to month there are periods of frenetic creativity followed by malaise, often with a forgetfulness that I have done things or been in things, an example being that lately I feel like a lazy bum, which negates the fact that I worked harder on my Photo Editor post than I've worked on anything art-wise in recent memory. Do other photographers have this amnesia? Is it a perfectionist thing--that you can never do enough be enough produce enough? I'm constantly reminding myself and trying to convince myself that the down times are when the creative ideas are brewing--and I actually have quite a few truth be told--but it's the execution, the actual mustering up of momentum that I avoid and delay and worry about. Enough already, excuse me while I go fulfill the wintertime blues cliche of eating chocolate cake in front of the TV.


Lane said…
It's natural to go through the tough times. Don't forget that your art will always be there, or at least that's what I keep telling myself. :) I've tried to stop putting pressure on myself to make work because it's taking all my energy just to function lately. But I'm determined to get my practice back. I know when I'm in a better place I'll get there.
Dave Woody said…
It's important to try to keep shooting, even through the downtimes, even if you think it will lead nowhere. Shoot just for the thrill of it, without thought to whether it is art or not. At the end of it all, you'll have something to show for it, and learn from it...rather than nothing. Make some cyanotypes, make some postcards, make a pinhole with your kids...whatever you can do to keep seeing new things.
Yes, to all the questions in your post.

I have no cure; I try to shoot every day, at least something. Success through excess.
Thanks everyone, great to get some advice and to know I'm not the only one who goes through this!

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